Dream: The Raspberry Bayer Aspirins LUCID *sexual*

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Dream 20030527, 6:30 AM:

This dream was lucid from the start – a Wake Initiated Lucid Dream, which is rare for me. After quite a long time trying to get comfortable, I finally settled into a good position, and began to feel my sense of my body fading. I listened to hypnogogic noise, and tried to concentrate on feeling my dream body, which eventually came into being.

I find myself in a living room that reminds me somewhat of Grandma’s house, although larger and full of more stuff. I wander around the living room a little, enjoying the dream sensations. I’m fully conscious of the fact that it’s illusory, and I’m taking in all the colors and textures. There is a lot of stuff piled in the room, almost like it’s being used as a storage space – there aren’t boxes, but things are piled on top of each other. I climb up some of the piles, looking down on the room; the ceiling is very tall, like fifteen feet or more. I jump off of the tall pile, and although I fall fairly quickly, I don’t hurt my feet or anything. Chris is here, and I remark to him that I didn’t get hurt because it’s a dream.

I walk into the the kitchen, and there are some people here. I pick up a white disk that has five or six little raspberry-colored spots on it; they are Bayer aspirins, with the name spelled out in little letters, but they’re attached to the disk. I look away and then look back at it, and the wording has changed; I do this several times, amused at the permutations of the lettering. The styles of the letters change, and after a few tries, the little red disks are gone, and I’m just holding a piece of white stuff, it looks kind of like porcelain or marble with the lettering engraved into it. I try to remember some of the things it says; I think that it may be informative later on. Unfortunately, upon waking, I don’t remember any of it. I open a big old-fashioned (like from the fifties) freezer, and push my face into it to see what’s inside and feel the cold. There is some sort of grid, and I kind of bump my face on it; it doesn’t hurt much, but I realize I can’t put my whole head into the space inside the freezer. I am still just reveling in the sensations of the dreamscape.

I also don’t remember now, who most of the people in the kitchen are. I remember Grandmother is here, and I think that I hand her the little white disk, and walk outside. It is sunny and beautiful, and I jump up into the air and sort of bounce around, not really flying so much as bounding up and down.

I catch sight of my reflection in a big picture window on the side of a modern-looking gray-sided house. It’s one of those that has a sloped roof where one of the walls is very tall and flat, the other shorter. I notice that the window makes me look more muscular than I am; I pause and grin and flex my arms, posing for the mirror. I decide that I will make myself look hugely muscular, and that is fun for a few seconds. Then, I climb upward a little, so that I can see the rest of the large reflective window, and somehow the reflection of myself turns into another man, up on the top of a roof between me and the window. He turns, and I notice the shape of his back, and think that it’s odd that my reflection has generated an entirely separate person. I notice that there are a couple of other guys up there; I think they’ve got a swimming pool, because they’re not naked, but in swimsuits or shorts. I remember something from a friend’s journal about enjoying really rough play including punching. In an almost puppet-like manipulation of the dream scene, I have one of them go up to another (I think there are three guys here now) and punch him hard in the stomach. The other guy doubles over a little, then straightens and punches back. The other guy joins in, helping the first aggressor to hold down and subdue the punch-ee. They tear his shorts off, and start playing in a sort of rough sexual way. It’s clear that although the guy being subdued is fighting back, he’s enjoying the whole scene. I join them on their deck, and run my hands over the guy who is now on his back on the floor. I start fucking him – as is so often the case in these dreams, I don’t remember undressing, although I find myself naked when things become sexual. I am very conscious of keeping my eyes open, and concentrating on balancing the sensations from my cock with the visual impressions from my eyes, so that the dream won’t disintegrate. I think to myself that the only time I’ve actually orgasmed in a dream was by jacking off, and wonder if I’ll be able to get off by fucking this guy. It sure feels good, though. After a while of really sweet thrusting, I pull my cock out and stroke it a few times – it seems abnormally thin at the end – and it starts spurting everywhere. It’s spurting a lot of fluid, seems like a mix of jizz and water, and I wonder to myself if my sleeping body is pissing itself, or needing to pee. I know that if I started to actually piss in my sleep, though, I’d wake up. I feel like I sort of “check in” with my sleeping body, at which point I kind of half-wake.

I go back into dreaming without a problem. At this point, I’m walking down a row of rooms in a hallway of a house; the floors are wooden and old looking, most of the doors are partly askew, and I peek into the rooms as if choosing which one to enter for my next adventure. I decide that I want to try a different building – and I begin to spin my body to change the scene. It doesn’t change much, though – I am still in a house hallway with wooden floors, although it is a different one than before. I try running down the stairs, and something clicks in my mind about someone having a panicky nightmare involving stairs, and there is a vague sense that this dream could turn nightmarish. I reach a door on the stairwell, and put my hand on it, saying, “This is the ground floor, this door goes outside,” but when I go through it, it is a basement. Although musty, it is well-lit and unthreatening. Without a transition, I’m back in the hallway, and I try again to change the building – to an office building this time – but it fails, and I wake up.